HUMILIATION

I asked you if you LOVE me too

You didn’t pay any heed

After all it was’nt you but

It was me in your need

 

Back and forth it kept on going

On your terms

which were’nt defined

as you didn’t want to commit

 

I kept on taking to everything

To everything you gave

Halves or fulls

Didnt matter as it was your way

 

For me it was just to see you

Hear you listen to you or feel you

The way I had sown my dreams

It was only my imagination

 

For you the reason was only one

To be with me

There was her and there was he

You didn’t want any more trouble

 

It took you 2 years to realize,

Enough for anyone to move on

I waited patiently for your yes

You thought it would be a smooth one

What’s just a Two years

I could’ve waited longer

But I was glad that you were arriving

Slowly but for longer

 

You kept the reality hidden

For a while till you felt

Joining sites like TINDER

And having me and the other girl too on the side

 

Going back and forth

Became your choice

Coming and going

Maybe you felt nice

 

On my birthday I woke up

With a message

I am going back to her

I have to pay for my sins

 

I was smiling As I cried

I wept when I completely Realized

You will never be ready fr me

You will never wait for me

 

My dream of being with you

Was a little far fetched

One day when I message a guy

Hell breaks loose

 

Maybe that’s what you were

Looking for a reason

To break me more

Whatever was left was gone!

 

Now that you have

Publicly starting shaming me

Thank you for this last time

I am humiliated

 

Hope it satisfies your ego

To paint me black

In front of your world

To make me look naked in front of your world

 

Deep down you know those guys don’t hold no place

But guess you just wanted a reason

To shove dirt on my face

Hope it makes you feel better

 

Guess shouldn’t have told you i love you

shouldn’t have lied to be with you

shouldn’t have cheated my parents to see you

shouldn’t have lied at home and spent days with you

 

I was lying for you and

you projecting i lied to you 🙂

make me smile and cry

the same time

 

I would’ve not started this

If I intend to lie hide or cheat

I would’ve not ruined my life and everything

But I should’ve known youll pull me down

Day its over

Guess today’s the day!

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Carousel

I strolled through the park, I felt at ease

I looked up at the sky I could feel the cool breeze

The elderly were slow, kids ran fast

Everyone in their own motion, as I walked past

 

The colour Green made it lively, air felt fresh

Nature was bestowing upon humans best of its best

As I sat on the bench I felt a sense of relief

I nudged my old soul to form new thoughts and belief

 

Soul was in denial and kept saying definite no

I kept pushing it to give it a go

I saw the carousel there where the kids seemed so excited

They kept falling off it, but the spirits were near sighted

 

Young souls didn’t see too far

They didn’t know it could  backfire

My old soul pleaded me to try the same too

As the wounds felt like flesh stung repeatedly by barbed wire

 

I didn’t know a carousel could cause a stir

It made a little clear to me what was all a blur.

To love isn’t to hold it so tight

Love is in letting them go, let them breathe and feel the light

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via Daily Prompt: Carousel

Winter Loving!

“Winter is the time for comfort, for good food and warmth, for the touch of a friendly hand and for a talk beside the fire: it is the time for home.” -Edith Sitwell

Of the seasons I love winters the most. There’s a sense of calm in the quiet, of solitude in the morning dews and of peace at the dusk. Ofcourse I relate to this weather as it brings out the best in me. Doesn’t everyone looks much more happier and prettier and smarter during winters? We eat better sleep better and we look so much better.

The colors the hues the warmth of shining sun, what is there one could ask more for. And the innumerable options a girl gets to wear throughout is something I cannot even begin to explain. From Overalls to Overcoats to Leather Jackets to Pullovers to cardigans to those cutesy socks and not to forget the oversized scarfs mufflers and leg warmers. Where do I begin as this has no end.

Here sharing a few of the looks I am completely in awe with. I hope you like them too.

 

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